#6 – June 7, 1978 – Westlake Village, CA – Trouble in Paradise

#6 – June 7, 1978 – Westlake Village, CA – Trouble in Paradise

BobPenny3BOB TO PENNY

 

My Life – People try to put themselves in between us, and separate us.  How do I feel about that?

Over the years, I have developed a tremendous possessiveness of you, my love.  It started, I guess, because of the great amount of time we were separated from each other early in our marriage.  We were struggling so hard to provide a good home for ourselves and our children that we sacrificed our own relationship.

 

Whereas in the early days of our courtship I would come to come upon you in the green room and you were surrounded by a crowd (of boys), I would just pick you up and whisk you away, I couldn’t do that in the  later years of our marriage.  I could not seem to break through the crowd around you.  Very often I felt like I was on the outside perimeter, bobbing my head up and down, trying to get your attention.

 

And so when we came to our beloved California, I became very possessive and irritated of anyone who would come between us.  That included business relations, family, and friends.  I resented our daughter and her lifelong dependence on us, our son with his overwhelming problems, Leo and the rest.

 

The Lord has given me the knowledge that our family is a part of who we are.  We’re all a part of each other.  As you and I are one, the four of us are one, to be loved and enjoyed as one body.  I still fall back on those old attitudes, like with the business problems that came between us today, but a lot less, and when I do, I know what I’m doing, and I fight it.

 

I love you, my love, and feel that I can share your light with our ever-growing family.  But always remember, you are my Hope Diamond.  I cherish you more than anything or anyone in the world.  Your Moe Precious

 

PENNY TO BOB

 

My Love, I love you.  I thank God for your and pray for His Guidance that I may be more for Him and for you, my love.

 

Today was a super bad day and I felt trapped.  I put Modern Day World (business) in between us.  I let business relations between us and I am so heartily sorry.  I am sad because I feel like I’m in the middle of the ocean and the only way is straight ahead even if the water looks very deep and over my head.  I’m worried because I don’t know if we are together in what we’re doing.

 

I love you above all else, above everyone and everything in the world.  I don’t want anything to come between us.  Today there was a big wall of misunderstanding that came between us and I thank God youy worked so hard to tear it down.  I guess I’m scared.  IO am praying to our Shepherd and I turn us over to Him to do what He will with us.

 

We’ll make it.  I know we will.  But it has to be us, just us, you and me.  I think the Lord calls us to love everyone but not to be too deeply involved with everyone.  I don’t know why we get so suckered away from what we must do.  But every time we are resolved again, I feel better.

 

I want us to be us, like we were at the beginning.  Help me.  I need you.  I love you.

Your wife who adores you, Faye Precious

 

 

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