#6 – June 7, 1978 – Westlake Village, CA – Trouble in Paradise
My Life – People try to put themselves in between us, and separate us. How do I feel about that?
Over the years, I have developed a tremendous possessiveness of you, my love. It started, I guess, because of the great amount of time we were separated from each other early in our marriage. We were struggling so hard to provide a good home for ourselves and our children that we sacrificed our own relationship.
Whereas in the early days of our courtship I would come to come upon you in the green room and you were surrounded by a crowd (of boys), I would just pick you up and whisk you away, I couldn’t do that in the later years of our marriage. I could not seem to break through the crowd around you. Very often I felt like I was on the outside perimeter, bobbing my head up and down, trying to get your attention.
And so when we came to our beloved California, I became very possessive and irritated of anyone who would come between us. That included business relations, family, and friends. I resented our daughter and her lifelong dependence on us, our son with his overwhelming problems, Leo and the rest.
The Lord has given me the knowledge that our family is a part of who we are. We’re all a part of each other. As you and I are one, the four of us are one, to be loved and enjoyed as one body. I still fall back on those old attitudes, like with the business problems that came between us today, but a lot less, and when I do, I know what I’m doing, and I fight it.
I love you, my love, and feel that I can share your light with our ever-growing family. But always remember, you are my Hope Diamond. I cherish you more than anything or anyone in the world. Your Moe Precious
PENNY TO BOB
My Love, I love you. I thank God for your and pray for His Guidance that I may be more for Him and for you, my love.
Today was a super bad day and I felt trapped. I put Modern Day World (business) in between us. I let business relations between us and I am so heartily sorry. I am sad because I feel like I’m in the middle of the ocean and the only way is straight ahead even if the water looks very deep and over my head. I’m worried because I don’t know if we are together in what we’re doing.
I love you above all else, above everyone and everything in the world. I don’t want anything to come between us. Today there was a big wall of misunderstanding that came between us and I thank God youy worked so hard to tear it down. I guess I’m scared. IO am praying to our Shepherd and I turn us over to Him to do what He will with us.
We’ll make it. I know we will. But it has to be us, just us, you and me. I think the Lord calls us to love everyone but not to be too deeply involved with everyone. I don’t know why we get so suckered away from what we must do. But every time we are resolved again, I feel better.
I want us to be us, like we were at the beginning. Help me. I need you. I love you.
Your wife who adores you, Faye Precious